I wanted to share a backstage real life moment with you because I am committed to being real and vulnerable to help us all learn the power we all have in our heart. ❤️
The itty bitty shitty committee was doing it's best to get me off course and I had to DIG DEEP. I want to normalize this because this is what happens as we up-level in our life and business.
I only slept a few hours each night for several nights leading up to this talk because I was SO excited and I wanted to share as many transformational tools with this group as possible in my 25 minute talk. I kept changing my talk to try to perfect it and the lack of sleep and the doubts started to creep in.
I was in the bathroom doing my breathing and affirmations and the exact practices I teach. I want you to repeat this because it the ONE thing I believe keep women from leveling up at these critical moments...when you get to a new level, your fears get bigger and you have to love yourself MORE! Most of the time this is where we quit and think it’s too hard. This is where you need to lean in and keep going more than ever!!
I was in the bathroom RIGHT before I was going on stage and the FEAR was coming in so intensely. I was doing EVERYTHING I knew to bring me back to my KNOWING and TRUST God more than ever. I kept telling myself ..."This is not my talk anyway....this is coming from God/source and all I need to be is the vessel and STEP UP to the call." I knew that in my core, but my mind did not want to believe and surrender.
A divine intervention happened at this exact moment. One of my Dot sisters, Jeannette Gaiter got the feeling I needed prayer and started to look for me. She of course couldn't find me because I was in a bathroom stall doing my breathing practices and praying for strength.
Then, all of a sudden she felt like she had to go to the bathroom. As she walked in I was walking out of the stall and she told me she needed to talk to me. I asked her if she could wait until after my talk because I was barely hanging on....she then said she felt called to pray with me. The tears just came and I put out my hands to hold hers and she prayed the most beautiful prayer for me. This was just a God moment and it was exactly what I needed to TRUST and SURRENDER to the call and I let go and let God take the wheel fully.
My mantra that has helped me continue to step up when I want to hide has been "My Mission is Greater than my Fear. " This reminds me that I am only here to make an impact for others. It helps me get out of my way and be the vessel of light and love I was created to be.
I had to dig deep and truly practice what I teach. This is my soul curriculum that is my lifeline and helps me thrive in my life and my business.
The moment I walked on stage a power deeper than I have ever felt came through me. All I cared about was speaking to my sisters SOULS because that is my super power. I felt everything I said through spirit right out of my mouth. The energy I had in my body was SO POWERFUL that the mike was giving off electric sparks. My talk was called the Ignite your Spark so it just felt perfect! The man that runs the mike said he never had this happen in his career and told me after my talk that he thought I was activating the energy in the mike. I just laughed because I knew that was true. I felt ELECTRIC!