Behind the Scenes; Transforming the fear into Love and Light

I just wanted to take a moment to share some deep reflections that have been on my heart in hopes they will help you on your journey.

I am committed to being real, raw, and vulnerable in my life and business. I believe it is important to share what takes place behind the scenes/stage. I believe this is vital for the IMPACT that we are here to make as women reclaiming our power and shining our light into the world.

I honestly can't stop the gratitude tears streaming down my face. I received two nominations from my sisters in our Polkadot Connection Company that is founded by fabulous Shannon Crotty. I am so honored that my amazing Dot sisters whom I love, cherish and respect with all my heart and soul nominated me for two awards in our world wide organization. There are three women nominated for each category out of thousands internationally, so it's beyond humbling to be on the nomination list at all.

I was nominated for Business Woman of the Year and Extraordinary Speaker of the Year.

October, 2021 I was honored to be one of the main stage speakers at our annual Celebration. I spoke on how to Magnify your Impact and Ignite your Inner Fire. It was a dream come true!!! I never felt more alive and aligned in my entire life! The fact that this miracle happened on stage is why I need to share the behind the scenes story with you because PUPLIC SPEAKING USED TO TERRIFY ME! 

I wanted to share a backstage real life moment with you because I am committed to being real and vulnerable to help us all learn the power we all have in our heart. ❤️

The itty bitty shitty committee was doing it's best to get me off course and I had to DIG DEEP. I want to normalize this because this is what happens as we up-level in our life and business.

I only slept a few hours each night for several nights leading up to this talk because I was SO excited and I wanted to share as many transformational tools with this group as possible in my 25 minute talk. I kept changing my talk to try to perfect it and the lack of sleep and the doubts started to creep in. 

I was in the bathroom doing my breathing and affirmations and the exact practices I teach. I want you to repeat this because it the ONE thing I believe keep women from leveling up at these critical moments...when you get to a new level, your fears get bigger and you have to love yourself MORE! Most of the time this is where we quit and think it’s too hard. This is where you need to lean in and keep going more than ever!!

I was in the bathroom RIGHT before I was going on stage and the FEAR was coming in so intensely. I was doing EVERYTHING I knew to bring me back to my KNOWING and TRUST God more than ever. I kept telling myself ..."This is not my talk anyway....this is coming from God/source and all I need to be is the vessel and STEP UP to the call." I knew that in my core, but my mind did not want to believe and surrender. 

A divine intervention happened at this exact moment. One of my Dot sisters, Jeannette Gaiter got the feeling I needed prayer and started to look for me. She of course couldn't find me because I was in a bathroom stall doing my breathing practices and praying for strength.  

Then, all of a sudden she felt like she had to go to the bathroom. As she walked in I was walking out of the stall and she told me she needed to talk to me. I asked her if she could wait until after my talk because I was barely hanging on....she then said she felt called to pray with me. The tears just came and I put out my hands to hold hers and she prayed the most beautiful prayer for me. This was just a God moment and it was exactly what I needed to TRUST and SURRENDER to the call and I let go and let God take the wheel fully. 

My mantra that has helped me continue to step up when I want to hide has been "My Mission is Greater than my Fear. " This reminds me that I am only here to make an impact for others. It helps me get out of my way and be the vessel of light and love I was created to be. 

I had to dig deep and truly practice what I teach. This is my soul curriculum that is my lifeline and helps me thrive in my life and my business. 

The moment I walked on stage a power deeper than I have ever felt came through me. All I cared about was speaking to my sisters SOULS because that is my super power. I felt everything I said through spirit right out of my mouth. The energy I had in my body was SO POWERFUL that the mike was giving off electric sparks. My talk was called the Ignite your Spark so it just felt perfect! The man that runs the mike said he never had this happen in his career and told me after my talk that he thought I was activating the energy in the mike. I just laughed because I knew that was true. I felt ELECTRIC!

I wanted to share these photos of this once in a lifetime moment with you. Can you feel the ENERGY and VIBRATION? It was the MOST EPIC MOMENT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!! 

I’m sharing this with you sisters because we all come to these moments in our life and business. The moments that we don’t think we can do it. The "Who am I" to speak and share my story? Self worth, self doubt are very real for us. 

I want to share that the world needs you, your spark, your mission and your business. YOU are unique and have a message. Please share it! Get out of the box and live in the alignment of your heart and you will NEVER go wrong! 

However,  the more we learn to flip the script and realize it is our inner need more love committee and give this part the love she needs, we transform the fear/darkness into love and light. That is when we find our spark that will propel us to our mission.  

I truly believe we have to embody these practices daily to keep our selves in the energy to match the dream in our hearts. 

I have walked through the fire of depression, anxiety, PTSD, health issues and am SO grateful to have learned energetic practices to heal myself. There is nothing more that I love to do than to share that with you. It has been my secret sauce in my business.

I am here for you. I see you! I hear you and I love you DEARLY! 

Go light up the world sisters! I can’t wait to see your ripple effect!

This quote speaks to my soul because THIS is exactly how my story started. Almost 6 years ago God gave me a vision that was SO BIG that I couldn't achieve it until I grew into the person who could achieve it. Here is the behind the scenes moments that I feel needs to come out in the open that I haven't shared with many people.

PUBLIC speaking was one of my worst fears! I was in front of children every single day teaching but it felt different. When children are deeply loved, they give the BEST love back. I always felt they were giving me so much back because they were so appreciative.

When I was asked to train other teachers because my students always made significant growth in my class, I would FREEZE UP! I basically had to be forced to train and each time my hands and body would tremble in front of my peers.

I joined this connection Company 7 years ago when I was still teaching full time. I felt very called to go to the their annual celebration.

I was sitting in the back like I always did in public because I truly did not want to be seen.

There was an amazing speaker on the main stage who you may know. Her name was K Paige Engle and she was rocking the stage! She was confident, funny, and had the audience hanging on to every word. I was truly in AWE OF HER!!! 

Then, she asked a question that spoke to my heart and I found my hand immediately go up. 

Just as quick of my hand went up the ITTY BITTY SHITTY COMMITTEE TOOK OVER! I also learned this phrase from another speaker this same weekend. 

I felt my arm shaking and then "Who do you think you are?" You can't answer this question, your voice will shake and you will look like a fool in front of 250 bad ass women. SO, I quickly put my hand down. 

Then, something crazy happened. I got a vision. Yes, I get visions and hear God speak to me. It has happened to me my entire life. The vision was ME on the the stage speaking. To say it freaked me out was an understatement. There was NO way I could do this if I can't even answer ONE question in front of this crowd in the BACK of the room. 

My soul sister Melissa Clampitt when I was in the mists of having my inner war going on. She insisted this photo needed to be taken and I am so glad she didn't let me say no. :) I LOVE WHAT WE DO FOR ONE ANOTHER! This is sisterhood at it's core. We need each other and we RISE TOGETHER! 

I will end this message just as I did my talk. 

I invite you to stand and click your heals (I wore Dorthy shoes from the Wizard of Oz in my presentation) 

As you click your heals together, say "There is NO place like home. "

Spread your arms and have them go up and down. These are your wings. 

YOUR WINGS ARE READY SISTER, IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO FLY!!!! 

I love you to the moon and back,

Stephanie 

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With much love and gratitude,

Stephanie Schoolmeester